Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Oh! How Things Change

This recent find of baby Mabel photos amaze and amuse me.  Although it looks like she's hanging her head in shame...she's really just trying to stay awake! And not doing a very good job of it for a 8 and 1/2 month old pup!
This  next one was taken in the back yard about the same time... I think that bone is bigger than she is!

What amazes me about both photos clean and nice everything looks! My grass is green. (I had money for the water bill.) The yard is trimmed. (My arms didn't ache for three weeks after mowing the grass.) The fences looked nice. (Mabel hadn't discovered chewing through them to get at critters!) The pool is clean. (I didn't have a duck. My back didn't kill me when I vacuumed it) .

The first photo shows that my carpets and kitchen floor are clean. ( I didn't own two businesses or teach, which lead me to create piles of stuff. I know where things are but if you walked in, you might think the place had been ransacked!) And my puppy still had many years ahead of her (although I was deep in HATE with her at this point in her life! Honestly, I've never disliked any dog more in my life.) And now, I know she is a senior and she too will leave me all too soon.

Sigh.... Looking at all of what was once my dream house makes me feel like such a loser!

I know I have to make some changes and I AM trying. I gave away about ten pounds of paints last week (two drawers in the craft studio!) I am trying on five or six pieces of clothing every day and what doesn't look good has GOT to go! I've been scanning photos that are fading in frames. The frames are in a pile for a charity (two shelves in the family room cleaned!).

Part of it is seeing how "stuff" is paralyzing my 90 year old mother. She doesn't want to commit to moving because "what will I do with my stuff?" She cannot see she does not need her stuff and won't need it ever again. She asks me daily what to do with it... my answer is "stop bringing more stuff home from the casino for starters!" I don't think it occurs to her that if she passed away tomorrow, it would be me, alone, having to get rid of it all...

And as for my four bedroom house and massive studio space full of stuff... I don't want it holding me down any more. I'm selling what I can on ebay. I realize even my inventory needs for the shop are one buys wood mounted stamps any more... so I've been selling grab bags of them, hoping to reclaim my shelf space for inventory that will sell in my classes.

It's a slow and tortuous process...letting go. But I have to. I have to!


♥♥♥ The OP Pack ♥♥♥ said...

It is never easy to let go of stuff. For some reason it has meaning to you. But when my mother passed, and I was left with all her "stuff", I vowed never to do that to my children. I still do have a lot that I could get rid of, but nothing like what my mom had. It sounds like you have a good plan, just keep working at it, little by little.

Meanwhile, we are all so enjoying the puppy pics of Mabel.

GOOSE said...

Just love the puppy Mabel pictures. MOM is not a saver. She really tried to live as minimal as possible. But she does know what it is like, sort of, as her family has tones and tons of stuff. And she see how hard it is for them to let loose of some of it. You do what makes you happy and feel peace.

24 Paws of Love said...

I feel your pain! We are in the process of trying to get rid of stuff as well. My husband is horrible about bringing things home and saving them for all eternity, but he is finally waking up and making some money on Craigslist with it. It isn't easy, is it?

Dexter said...

I, too, look at my parent's house and all the stuff and despair. They cannot let go of any item. Our house has little storage which helps us to keep things under control but even with that there are spaces that collect stuff. My rule is "if you didn't know you had it and can't put it someplace you will find it next time, it goes."

Every puppy is vexing at times. I love having a puppy to train up to your lifestyle, but those early years.... watch out.

Clothing is really hard to let go of. At least with clothes it is easy to find places to take them and pass them along to those in need. I don't have the patience for eBay. It's either in the dumpster or on the side of the road with a "free" sign attached.

Mango Momma