This recent find of baby Mabel photos amaze and amuse me. Although it looks like she's hanging her head in shame...she's really just trying to stay awake! And not doing a very good job of it for a 8 and 1/2 month old pup!
The first photo shows that my carpets and kitchen floor are clean. ( I didn't own two businesses or teach, which lead me to create piles of stuff. I know where things are but if you walked in, you might think the place had been ransacked!) And my puppy still had many years ahead of her (although I was deep in HATE with her at this point in her life! Honestly, I've never disliked any dog more in my life.) And now, I know she is a senior and she too will leave me all too soon.
Sigh.... Looking at all of what was once my dream house makes me feel like such a loser!
I know I have to make some changes and I AM trying. I gave away about ten pounds of paints last week (two drawers in the craft studio!) I am trying on five or six pieces of clothing every day and what doesn't look good has GOT to go! I've been scanning photos that are fading in frames. The frames are in a pile for a charity (two shelves in the family room cleaned!).
Part of it is seeing how "stuff" is paralyzing my 90 year old mother. She doesn't want to commit to moving because "what will I do with my stuff?" She cannot see she does not need her stuff and won't need it ever again. She asks me daily what to do with it... my answer is "stop bringing more stuff home from the casino for starters!" I don't think it occurs to her that if she passed away tomorrow, it would be me, alone, having to get rid of it all...
And as for my four bedroom house and massive studio space full of stuff... I don't want it holding me down any more. I'm selling what I can on ebay. I realize even my inventory needs for the shop are changing...no one buys wood mounted stamps any more... so I've been selling grab bags of them, hoping to reclaim my shelf space for inventory that will sell in my classes.
It's a slow and tortuous process...letting go. But I have to. I have to!